Back to the ER

Would YOU want to leave that cute little face?!















well, yesterday was my first day back at work and it went surprisingly better than i anticipated. i think it was harder on me the day before just thinking about being apart than actually having to be apart. im not saying it didnt suck to leave sawyer and be away from him all day, cuz i did miss him like crazy- i kept looking at his newborn picture that was hanging up in the nurses station. he looked so little and new- almost sad like "whoa what just happened, where am i???" and it made me want to snuggle him so bad! I had to choke back tears on the drive to work, and turn up the radio really loud.
the day was steady but not crazy, which was perfect because it made time go by quickly but it wasnt wild- we DID have a level one (heart attack) which i was afraid would happen because its one of the most serious, fast paced things that we deal with- and i didnt really want to do one on my first day back in 3 months, but we did awesome and had the pt on his/her ;) way to dm in 15 minutes- which is extraordinary!!! that made me feel pretty good afterwords, like "ok i can do this again after all" plus its kinda an adrenaline rush which is my fav part of being in the ER. also, it was awesome to get to see everyone again- i did miss all my work buddies A LOT! it was fun to get caught up on all the er gossip again- and dr h was in a good, funny mood. it helped that i got to work with "my nurse" who trained me as an intern and then new grad nurse- she is awesome and i knew she would take good care of me on my first day back AND i got to work with G and I LOVE getting to work with her as much as possible! PLUS our boss brought me the CUTEST gerber daisys in the cutest pink pail AND she also brought us all monster cookies from the bakery because she is awesome.
And Val said that sawyer did awesome too! He drank his bottles with NO fuss at all!!!! So he didn't starve while i was gone- YAY!!! He ate about 22 ounces total, and I pumped about 22 ounces yesterday, which i thought was kinda neat and funny- I used the nice hospital pump which was awesome because its fast and just AWESOME in general, i wish I could buy a hospital pump now after using it!
Val said that he even took TWO naps, and once just drifted off to sleep while laying on a blanket watching her fold laundry- um he NEVER does that for me! And I was so worried that he would freak out the whole time but he didnt. In fact today he has taken TWO good naps for me already! Which is amazing! Zach went and saw him at lunch and then after work had dinner there before coming home and he said that sawyer was just hanging out and seemed very content. Zach gave Sawyer his bath and swaddled him and had him almost asleep by the time i got home, and then i showered the icky ER germs off quick and nursed him and he slept for the first night in the Van Wyk baby bed instead of his swing- and he did fine! He woke up at 2:45 to eat but he has been doing that all week now for some reason- then i put him back in the bed and he fussed a little, but didnt cry, aand then fell asleep own his own (with just a little patting from me) after a few minutes! It was awesome- NO SWING!!
So all in all it was a much better day that I could have imagined! It couldnt have gone better. I love that Sawyer gets to spend time with his grandparents so that he will always have a good relationship with all of them. Also I think its good for him and Zach to have some time together without me around because i do NOT want zach to be one of those dads that calls taking care of their own children "babysitting" because i find that absurd- HELLO its your own child, you arent babysitting you are parenting! Its good for zach to bathe sawyer, and get him ready for bed, feed him, play with him, ect. without having to rely on me for anything- i like that!






















My pretty "welcome back dont be sad" flowers (which i can plant in our yard which makes them even more amazing!!!!)

Seriously I work with the BEST PEOPLE EVER!!!