well, i cant believe that it has been 12 weeks already, sawyer is growing up so incredibly fast! i go back to work this week- tuesday and friday this week- im kinda freaking out- he just loves to nurse so much and hates taking a bottle. It took zach a good hour yesterday to get him to take one ounce because sawyer just has no interest in eating from any of the bottles we have tried. Today he did a little better and actually ate about 2 ounces out of a bottle for me while we were in the car- it just makes me feel sad for him because he dosent like it at all. It is going to be so hard for me to be away from him- i miss him so much even when he is asleep for the night! I think that it will be good for the both of us though- Sawyer is going to get to spend time with his grandparents every week and that will be nice for him and for the gparents. And i will get some adult interaction time outside the house every week which i think will probably be good for me too- as hard as it may be. Plus work is how i have met most of the girls i know with babies/pregnant and its so fun to be able to get the kids together. I am a TINY bit excited to go back because it means that i get to see all my friends at work again, i do miss everyone a lot, even the drs and people in other departments! PLUS i did NOT got the college and work my heiny off for four years to do nothing as easy as that may seem right now i really am not going to throw away everything i worked for even if right now I feel like i want to. I already feel like i have forgotten a lot in the last twelve weeks. I think once a nurse, always a nurse- im still thinking i might be interested in ambulance crew or maybe NICU nursing SOMEDAY, right now my hours and the people i work with are too good so im not going anywhere. Im hoping sawyer will start to take a bottle well because it would be SUPER convenient if he would take a bottle in the car so we could get to the ozarks this summer without him getting crabby in the car since he has now decided he hates his carseat. Im SO excited for nice weather. I cant wait to be able to take sawyer outside to play- AND since this has been the second depressing post in a row.. here are some nice pictures of sawyer outside in the grass for the first time ever a few days ago when it was nice.
whats this mommy?
sleepy face
loves to snuggle mommy
what do you think little man?
in the stroller like a big big
cutie
You are really lucky that you only work a couple days a week. That way you can still spend lots of time with Baby! And he is smart and interested in things, so he will like going new places and hanging out with the g-parents more. Especially our parents, because he seems to think Mom is really interesting.
ReplyDeleteI didn't want to go back but dad never had a job with health insurance so I had to. I guess it turned out ok. I have useful skills and you kids are ok, aren't you?
ReplyDeleteKay - Grace refused to take a bottle at all, so I just worked 8 hr nights and she would have to cry/snuggle with Ryan when she was hungry at night. (I only worked 2-3 shifts per month then) He even brought her in to nurse when I worked days and she refused the bottle. I understand how you feel; it is hard to leave esp when they are dependent on you to eat, but it is great to get away, too - good for both of you. How wonderful that he will be cared for by family. I love the pictures! I'll be thinking of you this week...
ReplyDeleteOh - my mom really wanted me to let you know that Ryan just had his "first" kidney stone, too. He passed it in the ER (with Dilaudid and Zofran on board) but it was a miserable night. How ironic.
Good luck going back to work and keep up with the daily bottles - Sawyer will have to learn to accept it (or he won't and he'll cluster feed at night :)
Hugs from your cousin Sarah